Life's like that! :)
So let me just get to the point...i vaguely remembered I did create a blog once upon a time..actually..lemme say.. i am not sure i even vaguely remembered this till i just read it 2 mins ago!..It was a moment of 'It's all coming back to me now' :p anyway..hav bin toying with the idea of creating a blog or starting to write for sometime now..especially since I came to Stuttgart..which has by far bin the biggest change of my life till date! and finally I get to doing this today..at 3am.. when I have bin living alone and far away from home..without my mom around for last 9-10 mnths! what a contrast from what my first blog was about almost 5 years ago! so much has changed since then...more so in the last 10 months..it's like my life literally changed tracks after 30 years of being on one...It's bin stressful..bin scary..bin interesting...sometimes disappointing..sometimes a learning experience...but u knw what the greatest part is..I have no regrets!..and it's a great feeling to think back on over 3 decades where I have made some not so good choices(don wana use the word 'bad':))..bin impulsive and goofed up..did some crazy things dat I am not proud of...and still feel this way..the main reason that got me to start writing again today is this amazing guy I have met..I am with and from how I feel right now..I wish I am always with till I can.. :) More on this later...but for now...I love the way we can talk about things..the way I can discuss things with him that I didn't like or something I got upset about cuz of him..and how easy it feels after i speak with him...what I fear would end up being a fight or a bad argument ends up with me kissing my fone while talking to him to say Goodnight and smiling and being so peaceful and relaxed enough to be writing about this feeling :) It does feel like a crazy idea..me and him together...and I have absolutely no idea where this is gonna go...but whenever i think about it...it also feels just right..and I really hope and wish and pray that It is n dat he feels the same way...:) In any case..I know for sure..that he will always be one of the reasons I thank god for... :) Until next time...hopefully this time it will be sooner than after 5 years! ;)
So let me just get to the point...i vaguely remembered I did create a blog once upon a time..actually..lemme say.. i am not sure i even vaguely remembered this till i just read it 2 mins ago!..It was a moment of 'It's all coming back to me now' :p anyway..hav bin toying with the idea of creating a blog or starting to write for sometime now..especially since I came to Stuttgart..which has by far bin the biggest change of my life till date! and finally I get to doing this today..at 3am.. when I have bin living alone and far away from home..without my mom around for last 9-10 mnths! what a contrast from what my first blog was about almost 5 years ago! so much has changed since then...more so in the last 10 months..it's like my life literally changed tracks after 30 years of being on one...It's bin stressful..bin scary..bin interesting...sometimes disappointing..sometimes a learning experience...but u knw what the greatest part is..I have no regrets!..and it's a great feeling to think back on over 3 decades where I have made some not so good choices(don wana use the word 'bad':))..bin impulsive and goofed up..did some crazy things dat I am not proud of...and still feel this way..the main reason that got me to start writing again today is this amazing guy I have met..I am with and from how I feel right now..I wish I am always with till I can.. :) More on this later...but for now...I love the way we can talk about things..the way I can discuss things with him that I didn't like or something I got upset about cuz of him..and how easy it feels after i speak with him...what I fear would end up being a fight or a bad argument ends up with me kissing my fone while talking to him to say Goodnight and smiling and being so peaceful and relaxed enough to be writing about this feeling :) It does feel like a crazy idea..me and him together...and I have absolutely no idea where this is gonna go...but whenever i think about it...it also feels just right..and I really hope and wish and pray that It is n dat he feels the same way...:) In any case..I know for sure..that he will always be one of the reasons I thank god for... :) Until next time...hopefully this time it will be sooner than after 5 years! ;)
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